Lana Del Rey takes the latest cover of Rolling Stone, as rock’s saddest, baddest, diva. It’s the first appearance for the singer with the publication, and they noted that she tried to cancel the whole thing from happening.

“I’m not sure if they should run this story,” she tells senior writer Brian Hiatt. “I feel like maybe we should wait until there’s something good to talk about. You know? I just wish you could write about something else. There has to be someone else to be the cover story. Like, there has to be. Anybody.”

In the upcoming issue, Lana discusses her current state of mind, and how she wants people to hear such lyrics like “he hurt me and it felt like true love:”

“I just don’t want them to hear it at all,” she says. “I’m very selfish. I make everything for me, kind of. I mean, every little thing, down to the guitar and the drums. It’s just for me… I don’t want them to hear it and think about it. It’s none of their business!”

The entire issue hits stands July 18.